Doctor's visit

I had a doctor's appointment today. I kept thinking of all kinds of reasons to cancel! I found out a couple of weeks ago that Trish wouldn't be the one to see me today. She's on vacation this week, and she's leaving this particular doctor at the begining of next month anyways. I so do not like change! So of course having to see the other doctor instead of Trish was freaking me out. And I wasn't losing as much weight as I thought I should have been this past month. The first month I lost 15 pounds. And I kept checking myself at Jennifer's and I had only lost 5 pounds this month. I was really upset about this! I was like what's the point here? I'm hungry all the blooming time, I don't really get to eat what I want. And for what? 5 measly pounds? I thought I should be losing 15-20 pounds a month! Well I went in today for my appointment and I have lost another 9 pounds. I was like well OK, I really need to try harder next month. When the doctor came in he told me that my goal should be to lose 4-5 pounds a month so I am doing great! That made me so happy. I'm going to have to come up with a better eating schedule though. There's been a few times that I've only eaten once a day and I went 2 days without eating once. So my new plan is to still eat whatever I want for breakfast, a moderate healthy lunch and either a salad or some fruit at night if I'm hungry. I'm going to buy a whole bunch of healthy snacks to keep at work with me, so when I'm feeling hungry I will have something healthy to snack on instead of gorging on a cheeseburger and fries from Sonic instead of waiting to eat a salad at home. Yes I know Sonic has salads, but seriously why get a salad when a juicy cheeseburger and an order of salty crispy fries could just as easily be ordered? I so don't have that kind of self control. I also plan to start cooking more at home so I don't have to eat out as much during the week. Monday night will still probably we "easy" night. Like the kids will have pizza rolls or kid cuisines after girl scouts, but then hopefully on Wednesday when I get home from Life Group I'll be able to cook something easy and fast for lunch the next day. And make enough so the girls can eat it Thursday night before Anoe goes to girl scouts. Since it's starting to get dark later, Alexis can play at the playground and I'll be able to walk around the makeshift track at the elementary. The real test will be when I'm out at my Mom's house. For some reason I have the hardest time sticking to anything when I'm out there! It's not that they're constantly pushing food on me or anything, I really don't know what it is. No, I think I do actually. My Mom and Symantha are constantly snacking on something. And not healthy stuff. There's always some kind goody laying around. Of course a major reason my kids love being out there! There's always plenty of chocolate.

One more thing I want to work on is my attitude towards Anoe's eating habits. Any time she sees someone else eating or even thinks it's more than an hour since she's eaten she wants to eat! This is totally a bad habit I have taught her. When she was a baby anytime she would cry I would just give her a bottle instead of trying to see if she needed/wanted anything else. And now it's a horrible habit! I'm totally not going to put her on a diet or anything, but I am going to start limiting the amount of food she is allowed to have. It's not the she's really overweight or anything, but I don't want her to have to deal with it later.

OK so if you would please pray for me that I'm able to actually make all these changes in my life that would be great! I don't want these changes to be temporary either, I want this to be a total life change. This is the longest I have ever stuck to a diet plan, and I know it's going to get easier with time! Hopefully anyways.