Thursday, January 25, 2007

Life Group

Last night we started Life Group again. (Instead of meeting on Wednesday nights at church we meet in smaller groups in people's homes) At first I did not want to go. My sister who just recently moved to Clyde was not going to be there anymore and for numberous other reasons I just really did not want to go! But I went, and I am so glad I did!!! :) It was awesome! We had some great fellowship time and some really awesome food. Donna made BBQ Chicken, potatoe salad (my favorite dish of all time), and beans. I only ate some potatoe salad because of my new diet. (Not that potatoe salad is on the diet but who can resist it?) Then we got to worship, and then we went over some new rules! I'm so excited about these! I love rules and guidlines and stuff like that. It is going to be so awesome! I can not tell you how happy I am that I went.

Another awesome thing, our church is having a Chili Cookoff on Super Bowl Sunday. Well I'm going to be on one of the Chili teams! So far I'm in charge of tasting and decorating. I know Donna will have more for me to do, but at least I'm in charge of the important stuff (DECORATING)I thinkg I'm going to deocorate our table all girly! With pink foo foo stuff everywhere. It's going to be so awesome! I just can't wait.

I'm so very blessed to have the church family that I have! I just absolutley love them all!

Friday, January 19, 2007

Making the Devil ANGRY!!!

Let me just start off by saying how wonderful the children's Pastor at my church is! She's great!! Everything she teaches the kids is absolutely awesome! Our Pastor, Bryan, has been telling us that as God's children, we're Royalty! I've been having a hard time believing this for myself but I know for a fact that God thinks of my children as Royalty because they are!!!! Well my sweet precious 5 year old Anoe, knows this! Anytime she does something good or nice for someone without being asked she says (with the biggest smile ever) she's making the Devil angry! And making God and Jesus happy! The first couple of times she said this I was like yeah that's true, good work Anoe. But after awhile I was like where are you learning this? And she told me her teacher at church tells her that God likes it when she's a good girl and helps people! I love that my children enjoy going to church to learn the word of God.

Yesterday was Anoe's birthday and she got $5.00 for birthday money. Well this weekend we're suppose to have bad weather again so we had to run to the grocery store to get a couple of things real quick and Anoe was set on spending her money. The money was burning such a whole in her pocket I think I saw some smoke coming from her jacket! I kept telling her to just put her money away and save it for a toy or something. Oh no not my little "I'm-making-the-Devil-angry girl". Alexis wanted some Cracker Jacks, but had already picked out her treat so she had to decide between some kind of sour treat thing and the Cracker Jacks. Well Anoe said "I'll buy you Cracker Jacks. I love you! And I want to make the Devil angry!"

We all left the grocery happy. Alexis got both snacks. Which she was praying for out loud so I would give in and buy them both. And Anoe got to make the Devil angry!(again)

Thursday, January 18, 2007

My Supergirl

My baby is now officially 5!!! I'm kind of sad about this but also kind of happy! Really the only reason I'm sad is because she's really not a baby anymore. I still refer to her as my baby, though she quickly reminds me that she's a "big girl" now! Turning 5 means she'll be able to go to school this year!! Yay for starting school. She is super smart so I know she'll do just great. And her sister has been in school since before she was even born so according to Anoe, school is what all big girls do.

She is also having more birthday parties than anyone else I know! She's having one today at daycare with all of her friends and teachers. (Instead of spending $27.00 on a birthday cake, I made one that turned out really cute! I decorated it with sprinkles and made 5 candles out of pink icing with yellow sprinkles where the flames should be.) Then tonight at my house we're having a small party with cake and ice cream. (This one came from Schwan's) Then on Saturday her Dad is giving her a party at Chuck E. Cheese. Her real party will actually be next Friday at Pizza House in Clyde. It's her favorite place to eat and they have live music on Friday and Saturday nights! That's just way to many parties to keep up with! But hey you only turn 5 once right?

Oh how the time flies when you're having fun! Maybe turning 5 will also mean she'll be able to sit still for more than 30 seconds at a time! Probably not but I can always hope!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

The New Year

Yay my first blog of the year!! Even if it is nearly two weeks into the New Year! I've been pretty busy. This last week has been an emotional roller coaster for me! I was really sick Saturday and Sunday. Everytime I ate something I felt like throwing up. I couldn't really eat anything (and keep it down) until Tuesday evening. So of course I over did it because I was so blooming hungry.

To add on top of not feeling well, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my past and the things I've done. I've repented to God and Alexis for a lot of stuff I did wrong when she was a baby. I've never really thought about repenting for all that stuff because I didn't have God in my life then. But in reading another persons blog I learned that I had to confess it all and let God heal all the hurt that came with confessing. I've cried myself to sleep a lot this week.

To most people this next one is kind of weird. My kids who are 9 and 4 (soon to be 5 next Thursday Jan. 18) have always slept with me. Now they're sleeping in their own room without fighting with me! Which is great, but also heart breaking. I've been single so long, and even when Anoe's dad and I were together, I'd still go to their room to be with them or let them sleep in bed with me when he was "out". So I'm having a really hard time dealing with the emotions of them growing up and not needing me as much.

To make things even worse, a friend of mine were talking last night over dinner about a friend of hers that has custody of her neice because her Mom died. Well she was telling me about how CPS took her neice away because she had beaten her severly with an extension cord and was just abusive to her neice as well as her own children. My heart literally breaks anytime I hear about a child being mistreated like that! (Not to mention that I'm really very sensitive to stuff! I get depressed all the time for stuff I see and hear about in the news!) To make this depressed feeling even worse, Anoe's dad Scott, called to tell me about something he had seen on T.V. that happened to a little 11 month old little girl that really upset me. He knows this kind of stuff upsets me, so why call to tell me that? It's not like we're dating or trying to work things out. I'm standing firm that I want him to be in Anoe's life if he can get his act together, but other wise I have absolutely no use for him!!! So last night, Alexis kept trying to console me but I was just crying uncontrallably! I'm so blessed to have children that will come and give me hugs and kisses and tell me how much they love me while I cry like a baby! They even got up this morning without fighting! I love my babies!!!!!!!

But a bit of good news is that Alexis brought her report card home yesterday! She made all A's and B's except for in Reading, she made an 78. But I'm way happy and we're going out to celebrate!! YAY for Alexis! She's so awesome. So is my Anoe! I really need to get better about blogging instead of holding everything in for weeks at a time then just exploding!